I just want to write my close look into anxious day, especially for myself to remember. I had quite difficult day today. I had to deal with existential problems. No closer look. I would have to feel really bad after that. But I was dealing with it with head up. I wanted to give up in every second of the day, but I looked in the eyes of my little ones, and I knew that I cannot. If not for me, for her and her sister. I took even one personal picture when I felt needed in the whole chaos and failure. You are always needed, you are always worth of the life nevertheless you really feel.
I feel squeezed, exhausted and sore. I feel I was carrying bricks instead of my brain. I was shaking but smiling because I didn't want to show how puzzled I am.
I think no one really noticed because I was generally hiding at home. And don't worry, I have made a lot of painting today :-).
So, if you have any trouble, please write me a message. You do not need to be alone as I was. The more people, the less stress.
I feel squeezed, exhausted and sore. I feel I was carrying bricks instead of my brain. I was shaking but smiling because I didn't want to show how puzzled I am.
I think no one really noticed because I was generally hiding at home. And don't worry, I have made a lot of painting today :-).
So, if you have any trouble, please write me a message. You do not need to be alone as I was. The more people, the less stress.
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