Even it can sound a bit strange especially for people who knows me from my high school and university times, but I have to comit that I have a huge problem to stick on a diet. It seems like I can either not to eat or to eat everything, nothing in between. Well, it is not that bad, but if I find that we have some Viennese nougat at home, bet your dollars to donuts that you won't find them anymore.
I am thinking if it is normal. I guess everybody has certain food, especially chocolate, for which you would go really far away. But somehow I have that kind of demand of control above it. It means that if I can control such a simple thing as a control of eating myself only permitted food, I can later control my life. Which is nonsense, but it brings me kind of safe feeling. On the other hand I hate control and I want to feel free, not having any boundaries. I want to have the freedom. I have tried that and it felt fine, but recently I felt poisoned and heavy. Maybe it came also with the spring to clean up not only the environment but also myself from all the negative vibes around me. Good try. I kept it for about 5 days. But I am not giving up.
It would be nice to hear how do you clean up yourself in the spring, or just any time you need it. Sometimes it would need strong restart of my life, my own soul. But I cannot find the correct button, or switch knob for that.
Have a nice day :-).
I am thinking if it is normal. I guess everybody has certain food, especially chocolate, for which you would go really far away. But somehow I have that kind of demand of control above it. It means that if I can control such a simple thing as a control of eating myself only permitted food, I can later control my life. Which is nonsense, but it brings me kind of safe feeling. On the other hand I hate control and I want to feel free, not having any boundaries. I want to have the freedom. I have tried that and it felt fine, but recently I felt poisoned and heavy. Maybe it came also with the spring to clean up not only the environment but also myself from all the negative vibes around me. Good try. I kept it for about 5 days. But I am not giving up.
It would be nice to hear how do you clean up yourself in the spring, or just any time you need it. Sometimes it would need strong restart of my life, my own soul. But I cannot find the correct button, or switch knob for that.
Have a nice day :-).
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