30 minutes of Freedom vs. about 7 years 24/7 lack of Freedom

30 minutes of Freedom vs. about 7 years 24/7 lack of Freedom

I wanted to call it prison, but I didn't want to look like just released prisoner. I have had today 30 minutes of real freedom. One kid still in daycare and second on her practise. I was so brave to take skis with me and I went to ski again. And completely alone and in a silence. No one can really understand me, if you didn't experience the same day by day, 24/7 with kids or in pain. I am not complaining about my kids, but everybody needs to get own time, to relax, to meet adult people, to do something only for yourself time to time. Everybody needs to charge a battery. Recent year and half I was going on empty batteries without seeing anything in front me, just depressing flatness.

Today I have found 30 minutes of peace. I am already paying for that in the sense of pain, but it was worth of it. I have found freedom, privacy, silence, peace.

It was not about being alone. I am typically maximally waiting, but today I have found how to find the silent moment for myself and enjoy every minute of it by doing what I really wanted to do.



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