You wake up, you slowly get up and you feel strange. Something is wrong, like something is missing, something is weird. And then you realize what is different. You actually feel quite well, not so tired, even without any particular pain, no headache. The day starts and you start to run to catch up what you are not normally able to do, what you have been postponing for later. And suddenly there is an evening and you feel incredibly tired and depressed.
Why? First I wasn't doing anything special. I was so confused in what to do first, that I almost forget to think what I really wanted to do, or what I could do when I feel so well. I do not remember when I felt so well last time. It could be over one year. For example, I wished to go to swim when I feel better or go anywhere far away. Instead of that I was trying to clean, make a laundries, sorting papers. I have been walking out to fetch the kids instead of using car or bus and I have realized that they have some daycare activity afternoon with parents and I have been so tired already. I feel depressed because still the amount of things were just below the averaged people's activity. Or may be normal or may be more. I have actually no idea.
And when I came home. It came back. The monster of pain and fatigue is back in even worse shape. I am in pain because I have been doing just too much for me. I am absolutely not in shape. All my efforts and exercises are just for nothing. The end of funny story.
Have a nice evening.
Why? First I wasn't doing anything special. I was so confused in what to do first, that I almost forget to think what I really wanted to do, or what I could do when I feel so well. I do not remember when I felt so well last time. It could be over one year. For example, I wished to go to swim when I feel better or go anywhere far away. Instead of that I was trying to clean, make a laundries, sorting papers. I have been walking out to fetch the kids instead of using car or bus and I have realized that they have some daycare activity afternoon with parents and I have been so tired already. I feel depressed because still the amount of things were just below the averaged people's activity. Or may be normal or may be more. I have actually no idea.
And when I came home. It came back. The monster of pain and fatigue is back in even worse shape. I am in pain because I have been doing just too much for me. I am absolutely not in shape. All my efforts and exercises are just for nothing. The end of funny story.
Have a nice evening.
This is a rather normal human response when we feel energy to just wear ourselves out trying to make the most of this current feeling or opportunity instead of just resting and refresh ourselves and then we wear ourselves out all over again...in this you are not alone dear, we humans are a funny lot. I am continuing to think of you. :)
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