I was asked several times in most probably good sense why I cannot do anything about my diseases, meaning autoimunne rheumatic disease (lupus, diffuse scleroderma, thyroid) and depressions with anxiety (I am really not happy to write it so clear now). I was thinking about it today. Because believe me, I really do not like any of that. I hate it. I am tired of being tired and in pain. I would do whatever I can for change it. But also I know that there are people with bigger problems. So, I am trying to be patient. I can thank for sunny day, for calming rain, for the clouds on the sky, for the Moon shining through the night. Ok, or just being happy for having 2 wild beautiful kids.
But let's go back to the topic. First problem is currently not treatable, doctors can only try to stabilize the situation. Also the problem is that doctors are generally scared to give certain diagnose, especially in this case when symptoms are so different from case to case, it is very rare and also things can develop into different diagnose. Like in my case. Not clear what is it: scleroderma or lupus. It could be also something completely different what I probably never heard before. If I skip thyroid, which is hopefully well known, the second problem arose from certain circumstances in my life. Of course you need to have kind of precondition. And again from the beginning, chronical diseases, such as lupus and scleroderma, causes that people are in higher risk of depression development. Chronical pain can cause depression, not seeing the clear point of the life. On the other hand some symptoms of lupus, such as fatigue, sleeping problems, loss of energy can mimic the symptoms of depressions.
Wait what was the first, lupus or depression? Because on the other hand, depression and stress may cause flare of lupus, increasing pain, which leads to risk of depression again. So, in the end it doesn't matter what was first. The same question: what was first? Egg or chicken? :-)
Anyway I feel like in prison of pain. Whatever it means. Physical or mental, both feels the same in the end.
Have a nice weekend!!
But let's go back to the topic. First problem is currently not treatable, doctors can only try to stabilize the situation. Also the problem is that doctors are generally scared to give certain diagnose, especially in this case when symptoms are so different from case to case, it is very rare and also things can develop into different diagnose. Like in my case. Not clear what is it: scleroderma or lupus. It could be also something completely different what I probably never heard before. If I skip thyroid, which is hopefully well known, the second problem arose from certain circumstances in my life. Of course you need to have kind of precondition. And again from the beginning, chronical diseases, such as lupus and scleroderma, causes that people are in higher risk of depression development. Chronical pain can cause depression, not seeing the clear point of the life. On the other hand some symptoms of lupus, such as fatigue, sleeping problems, loss of energy can mimic the symptoms of depressions.
Wait what was the first, lupus or depression? Because on the other hand, depression and stress may cause flare of lupus, increasing pain, which leads to risk of depression again. So, in the end it doesn't matter what was first. The same question: what was first? Egg or chicken? :-)
Anyway I feel like in prison of pain. Whatever it means. Physical or mental, both feels the same in the end.
Have a nice weekend!!
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