Part of therapy

Well, this week didn't start very well. Actually it started so bad that I wanted to give up. I was trying to seek a help and I didn't get any, what I needed. As a part of my own therapy I decided to continue trying to write and to do new things which I had in my mind for a long time, but never had time, or I was just lazy. In my head everything seemed perfect and easy. The reality was far away from what I have seen in instruction videos. Ok, that I am used to it. But what I have created looks like that it belongs to the scary movie museums. But I know that I have moved forward. I have tried it and I will finish it, color it and take a picture of it and put it here. Even I do not feel well, I am scared of meeting people and I am scared from the future, I will probably never give up. Sometimes I am asking whether I am just not a looser even in this. That I am not able to finish this thing once forever. Just thinking not that I am actually having it in my mind. At least partly. That would be a sin. But .. but .. I am not sure.

Have a nice day!!