This is again quite personal. I am a bit thinking how to put it together. Don't judge me please.
I had quite strange fight with anxiety yesterday. On my second blog I got lot of readers and lot of messages and great discussions. I felt great. But on the other hand I started to feel panic for no reason, not I was not able to breath. Where is the light behind the wall? I felt so great and suddenly it turned into a panic and anxiety.
Please do not tell me just to relax. That's what people used to tell and unfortunately it doesn't work that way. I was always more stressing about everything more than other people before I realized that it is not actually normal. People do stress differently but this was different. I couldn't stop worrying, my thoughts were running in endless circles. Over the day I am not able to stop, but actually I am not able to do anything. But worse than the day is the night. If I get some sleep I usually wake up due to nightmares and I cannot stop thinking on worse case scenarios and solving hypothesis what could all happen. Unfortunately logic doesn't help. I have tried to get up and write down the things on the paper. When I read it in the morning I think I am totally crazy. I have been scared from sudden hunger, or sudden water lack, or plane crashing into our house.
Over the day I feel like air is not coming to my lungs, I feel dizzy and I am experiencing racing heart. I feel angry for that. I am tired.
Have a nice day!!
I had quite strange fight with anxiety yesterday. On my second blog I got lot of readers and lot of messages and great discussions. I felt great. But on the other hand I started to feel panic for no reason, not I was not able to breath. Where is the light behind the wall? I felt so great and suddenly it turned into a panic and anxiety.
Please do not tell me just to relax. That's what people used to tell and unfortunately it doesn't work that way. I was always more stressing about everything more than other people before I realized that it is not actually normal. People do stress differently but this was different. I couldn't stop worrying, my thoughts were running in endless circles. Over the day I am not able to stop, but actually I am not able to do anything. But worse than the day is the night. If I get some sleep I usually wake up due to nightmares and I cannot stop thinking on worse case scenarios and solving hypothesis what could all happen. Unfortunately logic doesn't help. I have tried to get up and write down the things on the paper. When I read it in the morning I think I am totally crazy. I have been scared from sudden hunger, or sudden water lack, or plane crashing into our house.
Over the day I feel like air is not coming to my lungs, I feel dizzy and I am experiencing racing heart. I feel angry for that. I am tired.
Have a nice day!!
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