As a parent I am doing million mistakes. But who is not. Well, theory is perfectly mastered, however practical part has its own problems. Things tend to flow without any control. Sometimes I am trying to control chaos, or rather to pretend to be in charge. Sometimes not even that. Sometimes I just want only to survive and let the things flow itself. Sorry but not sorry. I just want to do a lot of things but I am too tired. Too tired to explain all the things which hurt me. I am trying to keep smiling but inside I am only a human who is pretty scared.
I always had a perfect picture in my head how the things should be. But in reality I am loosing on all fronts. Kids are wild and run everywhere, do not eat proper meal, especially my favourite spinach. Because it is green or whatever. My younger one doesn't eat almost at all. I am not sure whether it is too boring to eat, or she just doesn't like almost anything. I have no idea what is the problem, but nobody would tell me what to do, but likes me to judge. But she is still so active and she likes to do exact opposite what is supposed to be done. And do not think that I am not trying to motivate her by game or so. She likes to run in the metro or in the bus. The more people, the better for her. And that drives me crazy. Most of the time I carry on with me million things, feeling as a Christmas tree and most of the time it is for nothing. My stomach turns upside down just to think about those trips.
I always had a perfect picture in my head how the things should be. But in reality I am loosing on all fronts. Kids are wild and run everywhere, do not eat proper meal, especially my favourite spinach. Because it is green or whatever. My younger one doesn't eat almost at all. I am not sure whether it is too boring to eat, or she just doesn't like almost anything. I have no idea what is the problem, but nobody would tell me what to do, but likes me to judge. But she is still so active and she likes to do exact opposite what is supposed to be done. And do not think that I am not trying to motivate her by game or so. She likes to run in the metro or in the bus. The more people, the better for her. And that drives me crazy. Most of the time I carry on with me million things, feeling as a Christmas tree and most of the time it is for nothing. My stomach turns upside down just to think about those trips.
But still better to go than to be at home. I feel anxious at home. I have the feeling that my older one has a really good time with friends and not just sitting at home in front of the TV. I am planning to put on ice the smaller one as well. She already skates. Well I am not that crazy.
I used to be so active and I want to teach my kids healthy lifestyle. But I am not sure how to teach them to eat good meals. It takes more time than I expected.
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